Happy Birthday Griffin

I had no idea how much I would love this little man.

He was lumpy and perfect.

It hit Lindsay first. She was an emotional train-wreck from the moment we saw him… I was more held together.

But tonight I am a mess.

This little man is my prized possession. He’s my best friend, my Griffin.

I can’t believe how much I love him!

He is my greatest gift.

Thank you God.

the home stretch!

Hello friends and family,

Baby Guard is almost here! His due date is 18 days away, but since Erin is full term he could come any day now. We are ridiculously excited and so grateful for how encouraging and supportive you all have been through this process. This kid (to be named later) is coming into the world with so much love waiting for him.

His room is ready. The car seat is installed. The bottles are washed. Even our dog knows something is coming!

We do still have some needs. We are still waiting to hear the final amount for the adoption fees and the hospital bills. We have no idea how much money we’ll need to spend on transportation to and from Santa Clarita, a rental car while we’re there, and for a hotel. Some of our friends chipped in and bought us a gift card for Southwest Airlines that should take care of the flight costs. THANKS GUYS! Everything else is still up in there air. We may be there for a week or two, we really have no idea!

We’ve already spent $4,500 on our initial fees. As of now we have about $5,600 in our savings account that we can use. We’re thinking that the bills, when all is said and done, will be anywhere from $6,000-$9,000. Our initial payment of $4,500 was made possible, in large part, by the generosity of our friends and family! Thank you so much for your help. We’ve come so far!

If you’d like to play a part in bringing home our baby boy, the easiest way to do it is through our PayPal account that we set up for the adoption. You can access that by clicking the donate button right here: . We have full confidence that God will meet every need we have. We totally understand if you can’t help out financially. We know all too well how finances can be tight sometimes! We’re fully prepared financially to raise this little guy. This really is just a chance for you guys to play a huge part in bringing him home.

Also, if you know of anyone near Santa Clarita with an extra car, or perhaps a guest house, those might be great alternatives to help meet our needs!

Please be praying for our birth parents and their families. They are wonderful people who have been so supportive of Lindsay and I through all of this. Also, please pray for me (Ryan). I still have no idea how to hold a newborn baby. I tried the other day and it was very awkward for both of us.

We love you guys, and we’re so grateful for your prayers and support! We can’t wait to introduce you to Baby Guard.

-Ryan and Lindsay


Two Sundays ago I was sitting on a charter bus on my way to Summer Camp when I received an email. It was from a sweet girl in California who wanted to talk to Lindsay and I about adopting her baby. I can’t remember exactly how it sounded, but I made a pretty loud/odd/happy noise right when I read who it was from! Everyone within ten feet of me on the bus heard it and looked at me. In the email she told me that the baby’s due date was November 20th, which is only three days before my birthday by the way! I told her to call Lindsay since I wouldn’t be able to talk much while I was at camp.

OK, so I get to camp and I’m super excited about everything. It was just awesome to be in a conversation with someone! I had tried not to get my hopes up, since I had no idea if it was going to work out with the girl in California.

A couple of days into camp I took about ten students to this huge craft shop where you can buy all sorts of stuff and stain it or paint it. Everyone started to look for whatever they wanted to paint and I said, “I think I’ll try to find something for our baby, or the baby’s room. I have no idea when we’ll actually bring a baby home, but I want to make something for whenever that is”.

I scan the first huge wall of items, and then the second huge wall, but I find nothing. I get to the last wall…

And I find this. <– click that sentence

There’s a whole wall of them, probably 50 of them! All of them are wrapped, and all of them are set to that date! It could have been 364 other dates… but no.

I said, “This is either the hugest coincidence of all time, or God sent me a pretty sweet sign! That or God is seriously, seriously mean. I think it’s a sign, haha!”

A week later we were asked to be the parents of that baby. Due date: November 20th!

Our Match Letter

We just put the finishing touches on our Match Letter! This is the letter that the birth moms & dads will see, along with about 40 other couples’ letters in the “Match Book”. We made it using a Microsoft Word template, and I think it turned out pretty good! This letter is basically the first glance that they’ll get, and if they like it they’ll tell the case worker to set up an initial meeting with us. Feels sorta like E-Harmony for babies. What do you think?

Babies, Babies, EVERYWHERE!

Does the Guinness Book of World Records track fertility? Not like “Hey, my corn’s growing good this year” fertility… I mean the baby-making kind. Because if they do, Gilbert has got to be the most fertile city in the Universe. I can’t remember if you’re supposed to capitalize universe. Anyways

We just got back from the mall, and I’m pretty sure everyone there had a baby. Employees working had babies. Janitors had babies. The guy who scooped my orange chicken onto my plate was holding a baby. Even babies had babies. We turned one corner and there were babies literally wall to wall. It looked like someone opened a huge box of happy babies and poured em out right before we turned the corner. And every one of them was adorable… like fictional adorable. I know that real babies poop and cry and poop, but none of these babies did. They all had Baby Gap outfits on and were chasing butterflies while singing about Jesus. Singing quietly and on key.

Then we went to Pottery Barn Kids, and they literally had babies swinging from ropes. None of them were crying… all of them looked like little baby models. They weren’t all white babies, it was like a rainbow of babies. We saw two babies that were obviously adopted (or she’s got some SPLAININ TO DO!). Adoptions and babies were everywhere.

And here we are… preparing for Baby Guard to come home. Everywhere we look is babies. We’re two weeks away from being in the adoption match book.

And all we see is babies.

I like what it’s doing to my soul.

Baby Guard Yard Sale

Let the fundraising begin!

We need to raise about $17,000 to bring home Baby Guard. :: gulp::  I was gonna use expensivebaby.com as our fundraising page, but Lindsay said that was insensitive; I thought it was funny. That’s usually how our conversations go, ha! I guess I wasted $10 on that domain.

We, along with our friends Matt and Ally, are having a huge yard sale at the Guard casa next Friday AND Saturday the 7th and 8th.

We’re going to split the profits from the day with Matt and Ally, since they’re adopting too!

If you would like to donate something that we could sell at our yard sale, we gladly accept! We can come pick stuff up, or you can drop it off at our house any time between now and then.

If you can’t make it to the yard sale, but would like to support our adoption financially, please use the “DONATE” button on our Dear Baby Guard blog.

Our address is 2680 East Brooks Street, Gilbert AZ, 85296 (Google Map Link).

Side note: Lindsay is worried about me putting our address up online, so I just wanted to remind everyone that, although I’m a pastor, I have a criminal history. If you break into my house you will likely evoke the 1998 version of Ryan. I also want to remind everyone that I’m kidding… sort of.